The girl that cried wolf

I got my period. I feel like I cried wolf, thinking I was pregnant and I wasn't. The past few weeks have been just off. I thought that it really could have been because I was pregnant and I wanted so badly to be able to say I knew it! Now all I can say is just kidding, I'm an idiot. I knew it was pretty unlikely to get pregnant our first cycle but I just wanted it to so bad. But at the same time, I'm not really upset. I thought I would be hysterically crying for at least a day, but nope. I'm just kind of like oh, it'll happen. And that is beyond weird for me. Does that mean I'm not ready for a baby?? I was so excited that if be able to tell my family over Easter and I think that's what I am most disappointed about, how pathetic? I am excited that I now have at least two weeks to finish painting the bedroom before there is a group if cells and worry about harming a forming baby. I also need to get back into a good exercise routine and now I have two weeks to form that routine. I also bought a book last month about preparing yourself, emotionally and psychically before you get pregnant. I would have been a little sad that I only read three chapters of that and then go pregnant. Of course I don't want it to take a long time to get pregnant, but this is also a process/journey and I know I have to take it.