This baby must be a girl

I went to fargo last week and found the most adorable pair of ankle boots but because I'm so indecisive lately I didn't buy them. All I've been doing is obsessing over those shoes which is so unlike me, I just had to have those shoes. I tried so hard to find them online and couldn't. Even with this spotting I am glad I can get a giggle and find some humor, I was talking with my friend kris and saying that the baby is obviously a girl and were both stressing about not buying those shoes which is why I am bleeding. Obviously not the case, but it's cute and a better theory than anything bad. Well my mom and sister are in fargo and I begged and begged her to go back to the store to get those shoes for me and I'll pay her back. She did! Now I just have to wait until next Friday to get them in person. We'll see if the bleeding stops now haha. And then this baby is clearly a girl and obsessed with shoes. A little humor and jokes make me feel better. 

12 weeks and more spotting

It is amazing how much my bump had grown. We had our screening yesterday for down syndrom, they said everything looks good and we'll know the results soon. We got to see the baby and he/she was jumping all over and kicking and punching. It was so awesome to see. We heard the heartbeat again at 153 beats per minute. The tech also said the placenta is behind the baby and I read online that will make you show sooner and bigger, makes sense. 

The baby had his/her arms up and was waving at us, so cute. But had the legs crossed so we weren't even able to get a guess if it's a boy or a girl. Hopefully were able to see at 20 weeks!

Yesterday evening I went to the bathroom and there was more spotting, this is the 3rd time this pregnancy. It's very light, but any amount of bleeding is so terrifying. The nurse said to keep monitoring it, and it's getting lighter since I was sleeping. The plan now is to just take it easy and rest a lot. My mom thinks it's when my period would be due, it happened at 4 weeks, 6 weeks, and now 12 weeks, so there really isn't a pattern. We'll see if I spot again down the road or not. I just wish I knew why this was happening. I feel like I am doing something to cause this but I have been so cautious. This just takes a lot out of me emotionally and mentally. I am exhausted so watching tv all day sounds nice. I feel like that's all I can do is lay down all day. If it helps or not at least I know I'm trying to make this stop. I am always terrified when I go to the bathroom I will see blood, and eventually I convince myself I'm being paranoid and then there it is. Were just praying everything is ok, it seems so crazy that we just saw the baby and it was perfect and then later I started bleeding. And it was an ultrasound on my stomach so nothing was inserted. Just hold tight baby and keeping moving around and having fun in there! I love you so much and am trying to protect you. 

Hearing the heartbeat

We had our 2nd doctors appointment yesterday and we got to hear the baby's heartbeat for the first time! It was 156 beats per minute and she said that the chance of a miscarriage go way down now. It makes everything seem so real. There is a real human being inside of me =) I just wish I would get to meet this little baby sooner! We both really like our doctor now, that makes it an even better experience. She explained everything to us and went over my lab results, the tests the last doctor never told us they were doing. That all was great and the pregnancy is going great too! Even though my tummy sure is growing, I have actually lost one pound. The doctor said that is ok but soon they want to see me gaining weight. Seems more realistic now because my nausea is getting way better! Food actually sounds so good, so I don't think it will be a problem gaining weight now haha. We have the 1st trimester screening on Tuesday so we will get to see the baby again. I am really excited about that!