11 weeks

I was 11 weeks yesterday. The baby is the size if a lime! He/she is yawning and chewing and doing summersaults, I wish I could feel him/her move. My stomach just keeps getting bigger and bigger. Everything I read online says it's caused from bloating, but it keeps growing. I shouldn't be showing yet, and my belly should not be this big! Not much has changed this week, but my nausea has been a little better thank goodness. I'm leaving tomorrow to go to fargo to visit my mom and sister and my mom and I are going to heaven is for real- live. I sure hope I can stay awake for it. 

Crazy emotions

My emotions are in full force. Coming home from the 4th of July I had my first taste of these uncontrollable emotions when Dairy Queen ran out of chicken strips, I started bawling. The next was because I was just so sick and wanted apple juice and we didn't have any. I thought if those two times were basically it, it wasn't too bad. But yesterday I spent basically the entire day just crying. All of the doctor confusing just made the tears flow. Then everything set me off including previews for movies Iv already seen. I was hoping today would be better but right before Brent left for work I started bawling. I just didn't want him to leave. He felt bad that he couldn't stay home, but he is working from home tomorrow! Yay! Today my neighbor and I are getting the house back in order, meaning the kitchen that has exploded. And then we are making a bunch of freezer ready meals because I haven't had the energy and iv been so sick so I haven't been making many dinners. Being around her always lifts my spirit so I am sure these crazy emotions will turn happy very soon. 

Confused

Our doctor told us the 2nd trimester starts at the beginning of 12 weeks. I thought that was early and that it should be the beginning of 14 weeks. I just called to schedule our 1st trimester screenings and that lady was saying beginning of 14 weeks. You would think the 2nd trimester would be the same for everyone. I just don't understand how I am being told two different things, which are off by TWO WEEKS! That's a big difference. Iv just been kind of disappointment with my doctor(s) they didn't even tell me what they check for when they take my blood or urine, I should have asked I guess, but I just feel like I'm left to figure out everything on my own. I felt like that when I had my miscarriage too. The only thing they told me was if I was bleeding a lot to go to the ER. How is that all you tell someone? I google everything and ask others that have been pregnant with all my questions. And when I brought a list of questions to the doctor after my miscarriage he looked at me like ok, why are you asking me these questions. Maybe we should try an appointment at a different location, but I think it might be the same doctors. I am pretty sure I want a doula when labor gets closer. Insurance doesn't cover that so of course Brent is going to say you don't need that, but I do. I always have so many questions and doctors just don't care. I freak out about everything and I was someone that will be there to support me. I know I have friends, and they have been amazing, but I think a doula is still going to be in our future. 

Update: I called to reschedule our appointment with the first doctor we saw before we were even pregnant, and now the doctors office has no record of me! What is going on? 

Insomnia

 it's only 11pm, but this is the latest iv been able to stay awake. I went to bed at 8:30 like iv been normally doing because I was so tired and so nauseous. After laying here for a couple hours and not being able to get comfortable because I felt like I was going to throw up I got a second wind. And now of course our new kitten is wide awake and hyper. She is clawing on everything and running around like crazy, and of course she HAS to be where I am. There's no chance of sleep now. And now the cat got the bunny going. Everyone is running around like crazy and I am sitting here watching full house. Hopefully I can fall asleep soon. 

So much to do

I was 10 weeks yesterday, but forgot to take a belly picture. We are officially in the double digits! I feel a lot better about the pregnancy now, not as worried that something will happen. My worries have now changed, we only have 6 months until the baby is here and I feel like we have two years worth of work to do around the house and I procrastinate like crazy, and still don't have much motivation. But yesterday my awesome husband surprised me and bought me a keurig! Maybe a little caffeine will help get me up off of the couch. 

9 weeks

I was 9 weeks on Monday and we had our first doctors appointment. They didn't do much, took urine and blood and that was it. Our next appointment was supposed to be in 4 weeks but she said we could come back in two weeks so we would be able to hear the heart beat. So our next appointment is July 28th. I have been way more emotional lately and just lazy. I am so exhausted and my stomach just feels so funny and gurgly. I'm still nauseous and it's worse when I'm constipated. Brent's starting to get annoyed because I refuse to do the dirty dishes so they are piling up. I need to just push through it and get some things done. One a happier note, we bought a new king size bed and two glider swivel recliners! The bed is being delivered on Friday and I cannot wait. We currently have a queen bed so I'm really excited for the extra room! Our recliners won't be here for a couple weeks but that is ok because we got a baby kitten and she likes to claw things. And on another different note, this weekend is pro nationals for motocross and we go every year but this year we are staying home. I just don't think I would make it through an entire day outside in the sun. It starts at like 8am and goes all day and it's 2 hours away. It just doesn't sound fun this year. I am sad still that we won't be there, but we will watch it on tv. 

Always something to worry about

My bump at 8 weeks, which was Monday. I can't believe I have a tummy already. My mom was in maternity clothes in first trimester and then she shrunk down in her 2nd, maybe that's what will happen to me haha. I wish. This past week exhaustion has hit me in the face. It's horrible. I'm ready for bed by 8pm and need to take naps during the day. I don't know how anyone can work during the first trimester, I applaud you. I would get nothing done at work. I barely get anything done at home. I also haven't been able to stand food. It is beyond hard to find anything that sounds even a little appealing. Iv been nauseous but not throwing up and I'm happy about that. Last night I was laying in bed and realized my boobs didn't really hurt, and normally they are killing me. Today food hasn't sounded disgusting, a lot actually sounds good. I'm terrified something happened to the baby. Over the 4th of July Brent and I were laying on a hammock and it broke and I got the wind knocked out of me. Iv been so worried that did something to the baby. I know he/she is very protected in there but after just having a miscarriage and spotting twice with this pregnancy, I can't help but worry all the time. And now it seems like my symptoms are fading away. We had an ultrasound July 2nd. Baby looked great with a heartbeat of 143!

Seeing the baby and the heartbeat was so amazing. I felt so good about everything. I wish we could have an ultrasound every week. We do have our first doctors appointment on Monday so I am excited about that and to ask about my symptoms disappearing. I just hope all well with the baby. Brent keeps reassuring me that everything is fine because I have no bleeding or cramping, but I'm sure I'll worry through out this entire pregnancy. I am just looking forward to the  2nd trimester when the scariest part is over.