Either or

Either I am pregnant or I'm going to have a really bad period. The nausea I was having only lasted those two days, so that was just random. My stomach was crampy and I just thought it was because I was constipated, so I have been taking more fiber and iv been pooping a lot, so I don't think I'm constipated and the cramping hasn't stopped. My boobs started hurting two days ago, and normally they start hurting about three days before my period. This is a week early. I have been extremely tired, and I am never tired. I normally get about four hours of sleep a night and am fine running off that. But this past week I barely make it up to bed and as soon as I'm in in bed I'm out. I thought I was getting sick because I have been so tired. And my mind has just been in a fog. I can't even remember what happened 5 minutes ago, but that is because I'm so tired. Now I just can't wait to confirm that I'm pregnant, and if my period does show up I know I am going to be devastated. If I am pregnant then during easter we can tell my family. I have the cutest way to tell them too! My mom wants to be the first person to know so I'm going to write on an Easter egg "we're pregnant!" And put it in the coloring and ask my mom to take it out. So cute I know. And I know I shouldn't be thinking about this stuff because chances are we didn't conceive on the first try. But I can't help but get excited. I don't know why my stomachs been hurting and iv been so tired, it just had to be because of a baby. Praying that it is. 

The wonder

I am two days past ovulation. I just desperetly want to know what is going on inside of me. Is there a fertalized egg? Did nothing happen? If it's fertalized will it attach to my uterus walls? So many questions. Iv heard the two week wait was hard, but it's not that I am eager to know if I'm pregnant or not, I just want to know what's going on this very moment. Iv been reading that quite a few people have known they were pregnant well before a positive test. Iv been very nauseous the past two days, and crampy. But I think it's just bad timing. I get nauseous a lot normally, but this is worse than normal. It's probably a mixture is nerves and excitement. And it is also probably a little of my mind playing tricks on me. I just need to stay busy and keep my mind off what is or isn't going on inside of me. 

and so it begins

I am so excited that after a year+ of waiting, we are going to start trying for a baby this month! I made my pre-conception appointment and have been looking up everything to help you conceive faster. I am on a "conception diet" which isn't a diet to lose weight, just certain foods at certain times of the month. I've never had good eating habits, so this is making me focus on eating in a very healthy way. I also did my research on things I shouldn't be doing, and things Brent shouldn't be doing. Obvious alcohol and drugs, but we don't do those anyways, but I am happy to tell you that I shouldn't be cleaning the cat liter! There is something that can be in their poop that you shouldn't handle when you're pregnant, or trying to get pregnant. I think it's actually harmful if you touch it, and who touches it? but I'll take it! another thing I'm excited about, Brent needs to limit his time on his cell phone, really it should just be under 4 hours, and he isn't on his phone too much anyways, but I can tell him that he shouldn't take it out now. Also he can't put his phone near his junk, so not even in his pocket. That one has been hard for him, he usually sets in on his lap all the time. He also can't put a laptop directly on his lab, he needs a pillow in between the two. laptops can heat his junk up by 35 degrees! and heat can kill sperm =( which also means no hot tubs for him, this is unfortunate because we own a hot tub, but its getting nicer out so it hasn't been a big deal. I have learned through all my research that it takes 3 months for sperm to mature. hopefully there are some mature ones in there. Not much has changed for me, just eating right and exercising. and by exercising I mean going for a walk once a day. Other than that I haven't had to change much, yet. I will get on pre-natal vitamins at my pre-conception appointment and then do whatever else they tell us to do. But speaking of my appointment, I've had my first set back, already! We always go to Allina for doctor's appointments and I scheduled my appointment there, and they told my our health insurance isn't in the Allina region! I was pretty upset because the hospital is 5-10 minutes away, and that would be ideal when having to go to appointments and eventually deliver a baby. Now we have to go to Maple Grove, which is 30 minutes away. A small set back, that will turn into a benefit. I toured the hospital here in Anoka with my cousin a few years back and I wasn't too thrilled with it, you change rooms 3 times and you're doctor for delivery is whoever is on call. But I was reading a little on the maternity ward in Maple Grove and their rooms are like hotel suites, I am excited about that, hopefully you don't switched rooms, and hopefully you're doctor is the one who delivers the baby. I am obviously way ahead of myself, we're not even pregnant yet. But I love to plan ahead and be ready for what's coming. Even if things go way off my plan, at least I have one. I've also noticed my entire mood and attitude just towards life and myself has completely changed, already. It very well could be that its not so darn cold out and spring has sprung, but I think it has a lot to do with trying for a baby. I am way more motivated now, I think that's because I want to get things done before I can't do them anymore. My bedroom is my current project, it's getting a complete makeover. And once I'm pregnant I don't think being around paint fumes would be ideal. I am just very positive and I hope I stay positive if, which most likely, we don't conceive this month. I am just very excited about everything.